Ahhh, the night before chemo. The creeping anxiety of knowing what is to come the next day. The love /hate relationship with the drugs (and radiation when the time comes) that make me feel bad but will ultimately keep me healthy. I call them “insurance.” My take on this whole cancer thing is that I am cancer free. It was all removed during surgery. The chemo and radiation are just “insurance” to a long and healthy life. So while there is the creeping anxiety, there is also the certainty of that long and healthy life that comes with each chemo and radiation treatment.